So long as I do stuff within a normalized range, no one really cares
what I do.
I can spend all day trying to figure out one bug, or ignore it. No
one will know the difference. I could even quit my job, and just a
few people will notice. (some people very much so, but 99+% will
not)
Re-reading the above sounds like I am suicidal, but I am not. My
point is quite exactly the opposite.
I can wear shoes or not, and no one cares. But I care. I love
being barefoot 99% of the time, and am working toward doing it more.
I can work on Marble Track 3 or not; no one cares. But I care! I
love the project; I love talking about it, I love its steady
progress building up to something over time. I love the ridiculousness
of it; I love people’s incredulous reactions when I say 1 second of
video took 2 hours to make (and it’s going to be a lot higher, tbh..
2 hours per second is just for a silent video!)
I can stop doing workshops and no one cares.. But I care! I did the
eye gazing workshop and it was great!
For some reason I have had (and still have) this fear that I cannot do
anything different from what I have been doing before, but this is
simply not true! How untrue is it?
Just this past weekend I did stand a few minutes of up comedy for the
first time (with no prior practice nor planning) and it was fine; it
was easier than I expected. I could do that, (or not, and no one
cares,) but I don’t want to do that.
I want to put together a Silent Football game, though Rin has
recommended I focus on my Barefoot Rob brand first, but I don’t wanna!
What should I do? ergg this is so confusing.
Instead of being frustrated, can I instead see the steading progress
forward like on Marble Track 3?
This is an age-old question, and the answer seems to be it does not
really matter; just do what I want to do!